Hesitation - learning from my mistakes
One of my biggest concerns while carrying concealed is whether I will be able to use my weapon if the situation warrants it. If I'm ever confronted by a life-threatening scenario will I be able to draw my weapon and, if necessary, use it to stop the threat.
There are three events in my recent life where a situation presented itself and I had a choice of acting or not. Several years ago, my family and I were taking a horse-drawn cart ride and, at one point, the horse stopped. As we sat there, the horse suddenly moved forward and my 4 year old son fell off the back of the cart. Before I could even move, my wife jumped off the cart and scooped him up just before the horse backed up.
A year ago, we were on a camping trip and were on inflatable rafts on a fairly calm river. I was in one raft with my 10 year old son and 12 year old daughter. She was at the front of the raft and I was at the back with my son sitting in the middle. He decided to sit on the edge of the raft and suddenly he fell over the side. Again before I could move (several seconds), he popped up from under water and I helped him back into the raft. I told myself then that I would never again watch one of my kids in danger and not try to help them.
This past July, we were taking a sailboat ride on the Mediterranean Sea and three of our kids were enjoying a raft pull from the back of the boat. The skipper had told us that if we fell off the raft to wait until the boat circled around and not to try and swim back to the raft. As my wife and I watched, my 13 year old daughter fell off the raft. In about 2 seconds I jumped off the sailboat, holding onto the tow rope that was attached to the raft. I then swam to my daughter, grabbed her and swam with her back to the raft.
The point of all this is that we can learn from our mistakes and from previous situations. My mental attitude has changed from one of helpless watching to purposeful action. I run scenarios through my head and I have also been practicing mental images of acting and reacting. I believe that we can learn from any situation and that hesitation is merely inaction from lack of preparedness and thoughtfulness.
It's important to know all the facts of a situation and not to just act rashly. But when the SHTF, preparedness will allow me to overcome hesitation and act appropriately.