I've read several of Mr. Ayoob's books and files and they scared the heck out of me. Along with YouTube videos that show the same, his gunfight analyses really drove home the point that you can be faster, you can have .45 acp, you can plant several shots perfectly....and that bad guy may very well still keep coming....and die later....but not before he shoots you or others.
Mr Ayoob has convinced me better than anyone or anything that almost the last thing I ever want to do is have to use my gun in self-defense (to not consider it my only 'tool'). Because it will never ever turn out the way you think it will. The gun introduces so many other variables. This perspective makes me more careful, more observant, more willing to walk away from confrontation, plan & run scenarios, etc. And of course it does encourage me to train, train, train.
Thank you Mr. Ayoob.
Lady with a gun