Carrying with Badly Painful and Diseased Hands?
Awhile back I posted my "bad-hands" story. To make it brief: about a month ago, seemingly out of nowhere, the thumb/wrist joint in both hands swelled up, doctors, x-rays, hand-surgeon. and MRIs followed. I have very bad arthritis in the right hand (dominant hand), the thumb bone out of place also, bone fragments, joint is deformed. Other hand, not as bad but bone on bone, no cartilage left. This is from per-existing arthritis exacerbated by 5 years of shooting (and having 2 high-caliber guns a bit too long for ideal trigger-reach. You compensate by fudging gun position: instead of it pointing straight-forward, at the point of the "V" made by the forefinger and thumb being held out straight - the way to test the position of a handgun - but with a longer trigger reach the whole gun shifts a bit to an angle - and recoil goes straight into that thumb-wrist joint. Like hitting a wood stick (the thumb bone) over and over with a hammer right into the joint.)
DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE. IF A GUN IS EVEN A BIT TOO LONG OF A TRIGGER-REACH: DON'T BUY IT! And watch when you draw a gun too, even one that fits well, so you learn exactly where to grab the hilt so it points absolutely straight, as checked in the "V" test.
Anyway, I can only shoot .22 and FiveSeveN FN (5.7x28mm) now; the 5.7 is great gun but ammo was hit by panic-buying and is harder to find than gold nuggets - luckily, I bought 1000 rounds just before. So, I can shoot these with no pain but the 5.7 I've really not practiced a lot and shoot it and .22 with my hand splints on - doesn't help accuracy but I can hit the torso pretty well. I'm far better with a 38 Snub I've shot for years and a 9mm Beretta, same. And I haven't tried either with the hand-splints but did without them, and even using my off-hand it hurt like hell on firing and continued for days after, the pain.
So, what do you think I should Carry, the 5.7 that doesn't hurt when I fire but that I'm only marginal with - or the 38 or 9mm that I can shoot much better but that will give me real pain when I do. I could just Carry one of the latter of the two and hope the adrenaline from a life and death crisis would make me not notice the pain and shoot well, but no way to know. It seems dicey, the sudden pain upon firing could throw-off the one shot you have before getting killed by a perp charging you, knife out for example.
Any advice on what I should Carry?
PS: Kind of confused - and discouraged too about my hands. (Surgery has to wait until they try other things first: steroid injections in joints (they've done this in both hands - lotsa fun with a needle right smack in the middle of an already painful joint) and the hand splints they also gave me.
So, for now this is it - I have what I have and have to work with it.
Any opinions would help me decide which of the two guns to Carry (no pain but me not as capable vs high capability, but high-pain on firing)
Thanks for any help!