A strange consideration? You tell me.
I am mentally prepared for having to take a life - if indeed it is my absolute last and only option - ''him or me''. I would not otherwise even consider carry and all the responsibility it entails.
There is one aspect tho that crosses my mind at times - and it is relevant to the nature of a BG type, should I ever have to (heaven forbid) go this far.
I doubt there are many here who would not have some degree of problem, coming to terms with the taking of a life - and I am obviously talking civilian here, not military. That said - there is an inner selfish self that hopes that should the situation arise, I want the BG to be bad - I mean BAD - as in evil incarnate. Not hopefully some snotty late teen who was spaced out on something and was foolish enough to wish to play at bandits!
I guess this is a need to be able to simplify the personal ''justification'' process - a means to assuage the guilt, and so have a lesser degree of after effect, a better way to pick up pieces and still go on to live a life. I would find it hard to forget the killing of a kid, however deranged he may have been, compared with an older ''devil incarnate''!
Naturally, I shall hope to never have a conflict of this type to deal with - but when we carry we have to consider all aspects - in fairness to self - it is no good carrying without some depth of thought to actions and consequences.
This may seem strange to some - I don't know but I bring it up as much as anything to explore how others might see it. Probably seems odd to some too, I mean, a threat to one's life is - just that - a threat to one's life, irrespective of perp' details.
In a Battle of Wits, most of MY students are UNARMED....
Euc, I work in an inner city high school and have for going on nine years now. I too have seen my share of punks, gangstas (mostly wannabes--the real ones are on the street drop-outs committing crimes), racists (all colors) and general losers on a fast trip to nowhere.
Originally Posted by Euclidean
I let them know right off the bat where I stand but usually those students who have had me before spread the word to the rest. However, there is always somebody who doesn't get the word or doesn't believe it. Always some youngster eager to try out the old lobo. That's where bearing (we used to call it command presence in the army), confidence and an easy manner come in most handy. I find I can diffuse most simmering situations by being smarter than they are...which is usually not too difficult. I have already predetermined to NEVER drop my guard and always be ready to do what must be done to preserve my life. I can't be in possession a firearm in school. I don't feel the need of one (unless you count the MS13 gang down the street) and never have. But that doesn't mean I'm never armed, however. I almost always have a rolled up newspaper under my arm on my way thru dark halls or into the teacher's parking lot. Correctly employed, it can be lethal. I have my awareness and I have my Aikido and other unarmed combat training. Most importantly I have the mindset of a sheepdog. Funny, the wolves near me never want to really test my resolve. I've posted this link before, but it always bears a repeat:
Euc, whether you know it or not, you along with the others here are SHEEP DOGS. That's why I hang out here.