Been doing a lot of study and shooting lately and wanted more input from the collective. I carry 45acp and find that all the defensive loads around seem to be +P. While this seems great I find them hard to make quick accurate followup shots due to the severe recoil. It seems to me a defensive load that mimics the target 230 grain cartridges would be great especially in the compacts that I tend to carry. What is out there and where do I get it? Not much luck where I live. I must be in the bigger is always better portion of the country. Or take me on and explain why that recoils is worth the loss in accuracy I'm open to correction.