Life has been pretty horrible lately. In the past 2 months my fiance has had a miscarriage, i wrecked my car, I got sick and had to miss work and since it's a dead end job with no benifits with little pay i was way short on my car payment. My parents helped me with that but i get a call from capital one and they tell me i never got my last months payment, my boss is on my ass because i'm "lazy" as he says. He doesn't take into account that I'm desperately trying to find a job, I have a fiance to think about now, and I have little time out side of school and work to do any of my personal buisness so I have to do it in between projects at work.
I have a 2 year degree in multimedia and it's basically a $42000 piece of paper and the degree i'm in now is equally useless. I want to transfer but I can't because since I work at the school as a work/study if i quit classes i'll lose my job as well. There are no benifits at this job and no chance for advancement. I'm basically paying them $84,000 so i can work for less that $12000 a year.
I dont want to switch degree's because i'm already so far in debt and I dont want to spend more money at a school that isn't even regionally accredited. And Im not the only one either. NO ONE from my graduating class or even anyone i know has gotten a job in field from my degree. I made a bad mistake in going to this school
Then to top it off my mom was put in the hospital friday because of a really bad ulcer. She has a lot of health problems as it is so it just worried me. She is ok now though. Should be out in a couple days.
I have depression. Been to a doctor about it before and they put me on meds and they helped some but i didnt like the way it made me feel. I would rather work through it and for a while I did. Well here with all this happening it's come back and suicide has crossed my mind more than once. Now i wouldn't do it but to be safe i left my weapons at my parents house 2 hours away from here. I'm not going to be carrying for a while...
Sorry for the sob story and the long post. just needed to vent
I have a 2 year degree in multimedia and it's basically a $42000 piece of paper and the degree i'm in now is equally useless. I want to transfer but I can't because since I work at the school as a work/study if i quit classes i'll lose my job as well. There are no benifits at this job and no chance for advancement. I'm basically paying them $84,000 so i can work for less that $12000 a year.
I dont want to switch degree's because i'm already so far in debt and I dont want to spend more money at a school that isn't even regionally accredited. And Im not the only one either. NO ONE from my graduating class or even anyone i know has gotten a job in field from my degree. I made a bad mistake in going to this school
Then to top it off my mom was put in the hospital friday because of a really bad ulcer. She has a lot of health problems as it is so it just worried me. She is ok now though. Should be out in a couple days.
I have depression. Been to a doctor about it before and they put me on meds and they helped some but i didnt like the way it made me feel. I would rather work through it and for a while I did. Well here with all this happening it's come back and suicide has crossed my mind more than once. Now i wouldn't do it but to be safe i left my weapons at my parents house 2 hours away from here. I'm not going to be carrying for a while...
Sorry for the sob story and the long post. just needed to vent