when it comes to recoil, I am really weak. I've fired 9mm practice ammo out of a beretta 92fs, and it was too much for me. same with standard pressure .38's out of a 20 ounce j frame; it was better, but still too much for me. I did some calculations, and 4.28 ft-lb is too much for me, more than any small.38 and anything other than a full size .380 like a Sig P232. Since both .38's and 9mm are out of the question for CC, and yeah, I know many here would say that I'm stuck with worthless ammo then, but for the sake of argument, what would you guys suggest? I'm a very short guy as well, 5'0 to be exact. I'm sure I could fire a .38 plus p with a full size revolver, but obviously I can't CC that. Thanks in advance.